Or I think about what I'm going to do now. With my life. With 3 kids. And then I get scared. I knew what I was doing with 1 kid. I knew what I was doing with 2. If I didn't know, I figured it out, quickly. Last summer I knew how to be pregnant with an 11 month old. This fall I knew how to be BIG pregnant, with a big new house to manage, and 2 kids. I got it all worked into a rhythm. But I'm out of my depth now. Seriously.
If I'm feeding Abby, then suddenly Aidan is trying get on my lap. If I'm playing with Aidan, Abby wakes up and needs to be fed again. I think if I hadn't been forced, by nature and my multiple sclerosis, to quit breast-feeding I would have given up by now. Or I'd be running around trying to discipline Aidan with Abby hanging off my bare breast. It's bad enough that I never get out of my pj's and that most of my "pj's" consist of maternity clothes.
And now they're awake...
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